In addition to being led by the great Steve Chandler, I think that “Club Fearless” resonates with me so much because I went through a season in which I was truly afraid of everything. “Listen in” on a letter I wrote to him recently after studying the book of Esther in the Bible:

….My family went through a period of time in which we were hit month after month by one life-altering tragedy after another. Literally, when the phone rang, we all jumped. 

I was in college at the time, and literally on my own for the first time ever.  Financially, emotionally, relationally.   Every morning I got in my car to go to school or work and thought, “Today could be the day for me.”  While that sounds incredibly pitiful, it eventually gave me such power and confidence… Because there was a moment when that became “okay” with me. 

I fully accepted death – even MY death – as a part of me living.  There was no way I could control it, or reel it in, or make it cower to my wants or wishes or fears.  I simply sat in my car one day, and the very common thought came back to me, “This could be the day for me.”  One day,  I remember turning the ignition on defiantly and thought, “Yep.”  But this time, it was with a smile… with a feeling of victory and acceptance.  Simply, “Yep… it sure could be”. 

Suddenly, it meant nothing any more.  The fear of death had lost all of its power over me.  There was no counseling, or coaching, or debating or Bible study.  It was a simple acceptance. …..

Truly, when you are no longer afraid of dying, you can achieve ANYTHING.  To living fearlessly, courageously, boldly and authentically!  To EACH of US!!

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